Learning too much to slow

Try to learn something about everything and everything about something. - Thomas H. Huxley

I love this quote. This is what I do with everything to the point it actually becomes a downfall. If someone asks me a question and I don't know the answer I can't go on until I find out. I can't just say "I don't know". Well, now that I'm taking this Medical Terminology class I'm finding this is a huge issue. The purpose of the class is to learn the lingo and not all of the details on everything. Since I have this huge hunger to learn all of the details I fall behind.

One of the books I needed for this class is a medical dictionary. I got Mosby's medical dictionary and it has great pictures and so much information that I find myself actually READING THE DICTIONARY! I start out looking up a term for my class and on the way I see this interesting picture. Next thing I know I've read about that which led me to new terms I didn't know so I looked them up too and have sticky notes all over the place like bread crumbs to mark my path. An hour or so later I'll realize I got sidetracked again and need to get back to studying the right stuff for my class! It's dangerous!

So I took my mid term yesterday and I don't think I did very well. I missed the class last week because my oldest son Jared was hurt at baseball and we had to get x-rays done to make sure everything was okay. We went to a walk in clinic and so all in all we were there for over 4 hours! I also managed to rip my big toe nail off when I was helping my husband move a mattress. That was one of the most painful things I've ever had happen to me - probably right between my sick gallbladder and childbirth. YES, I'd rather had another baby than have that happen to my toe again and I thank God I only had ONE gallbladder! I do have pictures (not bloody but showing toe nail not attached) if anyone wants to see LOL So, with all of that going on last week I didn't study as much as I should have and I didn't retain very well the stuff I did study. One thing is for sure, I know the anatomy of my toe pretty well!

Well, I can't do anything about that test anymore and I have to wait until next week to find out how I did. At least I knew the extra credit questions so that should help. I'll just have to really study from here on out and try to only study what's in the book and not get to in debt in the learning process. I know the skeletal system is coming up and that will be hard to resist. I've already read it actually. I really need to get good grades from here on out to bring up my score.

Doin the happy dance

I've lost 5 pounds now! *whoo hooo* Yeah! I started using Traineo after I had already lost 2 pounds so really I lost 7! That's great! I have lost some off my thighs and my waist (and of course the boobs) but I REALLY want to lose the belly! Okay, so 16 pounds to go!

Jumpcut

I've been having fun at jumpcut lately. If you haven't heard about this site you should go check it out. They let you upload your pictures, movie clips, and sounds files and then make your own movies. You can edit, add titles and special effects and it's great fun. If you go by there you should look me up. I'm Donnabug. I just made a great music video out of pictures of the boys dancing with an exercise video in their pajamas. I also wrote a country song for Flylady. It's a song about decluttering so it may seem funny to most people. My kids were certainly laughing their tails off.

You know, a cop just drove by my house way too fast.... do you think I should call the cops? LOL I live across the street from a park and people drive too fast all the time. I am always yelling at someone for almost hitting a child. Hmmmm can a cop get a ticket? And who would give it? Things to ponder.

Well, great news! I found my purse! It was at Quiznos! I didn't even remember going there but I'm so glad to have it back! My husband wanted to go there for lunch before he left for Vegas and I had a class that night. So I couldn't even concentrate on lunch because I wanted to study more for my quiz. I pretty much just stuffed my face and wanted to go. That must be why I forgot it there.

In other news, LOL, I managed to maim myself in the middle of the night. The dog needed to go outside at about 1:30 am and I think I was sleep walking when I got up to let her out. When she came back in and I closed the door the metal edge of the weather stripping on the edge of the door sliced right underneath my big toe nail....right where the nail bed starts. Oh man it hurt and I woke up real fast!! It started bleeding, turned dark purple and blew up to the size of a drumstick. I put some stuff on it and tried to go back to bed but I couldn't sleep it was throbbing so bad. I kept soaking it with antiseptic and finally the swelling went down and it was only purple under the nail. So I painted my toenails a dark color. It still hurts though. Owie. Cry for me.

Well, Happy Fathers day to all the fathers out there. My husband is in Vegas still so I know he's a happy father.

I better go study for my Medical Terminology class.

If a tree falls next door....

Will I hear it before it hits me?

My neighbor is cutting down this huge tree and I'm starting to get nervous. It seems like it would fall right on my house! I really hope he is a professional and not just a buddy. We have spruce bud worms really bad in our area and he is afraid they are killing the tree and then it will fall on their house during a storm. It is a very big tree....... but I'm pretty sure it's looked right at me. I think it would fall on my bedroom where I'm at. See why I'm nervous! There really isn't any room for it to fall. I am very curious how they are planning to take it down safely. They are cleaning the branches off it and that should take them a while.

I watched "Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood" yesterday. It's not really like the book. They changed some aspects of the story and merged it with details from "little alters everywhere". It was cute and sad. Very sentimental and they had such a good cast! It is one of those stories that leaves you feeling good in the end though. I just love the story. I haven't finished the book yet but I'm still going to, especially since the movie wasn't exactly the same.

Well, I somehow managed to lose my purse. The worst part is it has to be here!!!! I remember getting home with it and I asked my oldest son to take it inside for me when we were unloading the car. I never saw it again and I have turned my house upside-down looking for it. I even looked in the garbage (and it was gross) and in the freezer because the kids put away the things from the store.. you never know! I tore my room apart last night in case someone put it in there but I didn't find it. I did find my new glasses and an earring I've been looking for. I also went all through the garage and did all the laundry in there. I think a gremlin got in here and took it! I have never been so frustrated! ARGH! This really bites!

Well, the tree didn't fall on my house. We just watched them cut it down in bite sized pieces...well, if you were a dinosaur they would be bite sized. I like trees and I really hate to see them being cut down. We don't have enough trees in town. I have two spruce trees with bud worms too but I'm going to try a different method. There is something you can water the tree with in the fall that will prevent the worms from returning next year and it takes about ten years for them to kill a tree. They don't do damage on the inside, they just eat the new growth each year. I did a research paper on Spruce bud worms when I took my English class a year ago because our whole area had been infested with them along with many different pests. All the trees had something. There were caterpillars of many different types all over everything. I read in the paper that some people went home from work to find their garage doors or the side of their houses covered in big black caterpillars. One of my coworkers lived in that area and she said they were all over the ground too so after she pulled into the garage and got out there were green slicks where she drove LOL Yuckers! So this is the second year my trees have been harboring these bad bugs. They aren't as big but they hang from webs all over the tree. You don't usually see them until you walk into them and get webbed! Ewwww! I should have treated my trees last fall but was busy with classes and never go around to doing it. I will definitely do it this year.

Okay, time for tree too. They have a second chance to totally obliterate my house with me in it. This tree is much closer to my house too. I think it's a conspiracy or something.

I feel so appathetic now. I have searched my whole house, turned everything upside-down, and I can't think of where to look next. I have already gone through the stage of being upset and stressed and now I'm just... blah. I just want to take a mental vacation.

pictures

My husband was getting the camera ready to take to Vegas and these pictures were still on it. I completely forgot about taking them. I was hanging out with my baby-friend and her mama. Cheesy G was there too along with a few others. It was someone's birthday but Loopy Linda was wearing the wild woman head dress.





Doesn't she look like Queen of the Loony bin?







I think she should wear it every day and learn to wave like Vanna.






We were being really goofy and we had a great time.

I LOVE this picture!!

Look out Rocky! Here comes A-cacia Yo Face!

NEWS FLASH!!!!!!!!!!!

I MADE SOMETHING FOR DINNER AND RILEY ATE IT!!!!!!!

CALL A PRESS CONFERENCE!!!!!

The life of a Bee

You know, I never really thought of myself as an environmentalist.....or a "tree hugger" but I have always been in love with nature. I guess I straddle the fence on that. My dad has always liked to hunt and always made the most of everything he brought in but I could never do it. I mean, I went hunting with him on occasion and I saw the animals he brought home and prayed over them at supper.... "Dear Lord, please be with the family of this moose my daddy killed.......and thank you for this wonderful meal my mom cooked for us (cough!) Amen." LOL But when he actually gave me the rifle and helped me aim it at a grouse, I looked through that scope at it's dark black eye and watched it blink... and I couldn't shoot it. I tried to miss intentionally and ended up getting the butt of the gun slammed against my cheekbone. Ouch. I did manage to miss the bird but grouse are very dumb birds and it just sat there and blinked again as my dad aimed for himself. What can I say, I tried. But after that I decided that I wasn't a "hunter" like my dad. I never thought he was evil or anything because he was a firm believer in being a "true sportsmen". He made sure the animals didn't "suffer"....although, I'm sure it smarted to be shot even if his aim was true and death was quick.

Now, years later, married and with two kids of my own, I never really thought about hunting or fishing. We may live in Alaska but we live in town and if a moose happens to stumble through our yard we grab the camera not a gun. Now, if someone offers me a little moose meat wrapped in freezer paper I'd gladly accept. It's amazing how good it can taste when it's not burnt......oops! forget I said that.......but I am not going to be the one that looks into those big beautiful brown eyes and pulls the trigger. That's just me though, and I'd never tell my kids that hunting was bad. I never even thought about what they thought about hunting.....well, until the day my children mourned the passing of a bee.

The bee....a nasty black wasp that was at least 4" long and seething mad about being trapped in my curtain......had the kids terrified. If it were a spider I would get a cup and take the little fellow outside like a toddler being "turned around" to the proper direction. This isn't Texas; The spiders here are smaller than a fly. But this black vibrating and hissing menace wasn't going in any cup I was holding. I got "the spray" and hosed his scary-hairy butt down. The faces of the kids then changed from horror (at seeing the bee try to sting my curtain to death) to shock when it rolled onto its back and started "suffering" and then to remorse at being an accomplice in a murder. Riley said I should get it down so they could take it outside to get some air. "Then", Riley said, "He might make it". After I got a piece of paper and got the bee down the boys took it outside. I asked where they put it and Jared said, "at the park near a nice tree..."and a dandelion" Riley chimed in. Awww, how sweet. Too bad they don't have "Bee-Bee Guns" because I'd shoot one of those suckers in an instant!

Another one got in the house this afternoon and 4 brown eyes looked at me like "Don't kill it!!!" It made me think of the people who wanted the president to pardon Turkeys at Thanksgiving LOL So, the cool (and heroic) mom that I am, I got a cup and a piece of paper and set the little devil free. Free to sting again.... can't you just hear the Law & Order music now?

Sisterhood...once upon a December

I overdosed on bottlecaps today....... only the purple ones. Well, and a few reds. I really don't like the red ones but I felt I NEEDED more and the purples were all gone. They have these boxes of bottlecaps at Walmart and I made the mistake of buying a bazillion boxes. After I gorged on those I started to feel a little........well TOO sweet, if that's at all possible for me LOL I drank a bunch of water and then tried to balance out the sweetness with a little salty snack. It didn't really work. Later on in the afternoon the crash hit and I slept for 6 hours. After I came out of that coma I felt the need to exercise and went miles in my garage on the bike in front of the bookshelf. I picked up the Ya-YA book and ended up peddling past my 30 minute timer and probably 3o more. I went 12 miles in my reading clip, which isn't really very fast. Well, about 12 miles an hour I guess. Then I grabbed my usual nightcap....a cup of sleepy time tea and some vanilla yogurt. I have strawberries too that I found at Sam's club. Mmmmmmmmmmmmm Now this is bliss.

I had that song from Anastasia stuck in my head so turned on itunes and set it on repeat. So Deanna Carter is singing "once upon a December" over and over and over..... it's a soothing moody song.

Something caught me when I was reading and I think it has something to do with this odd mood I've been in lately. It's this whole "sisterhood" thing...... or girlfriends. This is the third book I've read that centered on that theme. I haven't let anyone get close enough to me to have any good friends like this. I'm not sure why but I kind of keep this wall up to people. I'm friendly and likable.........but for reason I tend to be antisocial and missed parties or not be able to make it when people are going out. Now I'm regretting it. I wish I had some girlfriends all these years that have passed me by....... friends to reminisce with about old times. I've lost touch with the friends I had as a kid. I remember them but they aren't around anymore. Some of them just aren't people I could hang out with anymore. Some of them have different names now.

Oh well, I know I have friends now and I just need to work at keeping them from drifting away. I'll have to add that to my "to do" list.

1. vacuum
2. clean the tub
3. study
4. take jared to baseball
5. call a friend and catch up

Restless legs and mind

I can't sleep. My legs wont let me lay still and my mind is churning away so I decided to get up and do something. I stretched my legs so now I need to empty my brain.

I realized today that I have become obsessive about my weight. I just want to lose weight NOW. I probably jumped on the scale more than 20 times today.... partly because I think it's dysfunctional but partly because I'm crazed. I feel so old lately.... old, fat and stupid. Why is it so hard to lose weight now that I'm 35? I travel miles in my garage each night (on my stationary bike) and lift my son's weights until my body feels like rubber and I've only lost 4 pounds in the last month. *sigh*

I was so hyped up about becoming a nurse but as I sit there in class and look around I realize just how late I am at coming to this decision. The people around me are barely 20, if that, and they already know more than I do. I am becoming so impatient. I want to be a nurse NOW.... I want to lose weight NOW! When did I lose sight of the fact that life is THE JOURNEY not the destination? When did I start to care about what people thought of me?

UGH! I guess I just want to be something when I grow up. I still feel like a kid......a kid with kids.

Today I was really goofy. I really was a kid amongst kids. I joked and laughed with the boys and it felt good....... well, until I had to be "the mom" and found it was hard to regain that authority after acting like a child. I wish I hadn't wasted so much of my life. There is so much I could have become by now... so much more I could have accomplished. Ha, my kids have accomplished more than I have in some ways.

I remember when I was much much younger dreaming about all the things I would be or do once I grew up. I have been thinking a lot about that lately. I am sure this list is nothing like the list I had then... I'm sure that list was much grander...but these are my most recent aspirations.

When I grow up I want to...

1. always be a student
2. see things as a child
3. appreciate the small things that are often overlooked
4. dance in the rain and jump in the puddles
5. be loved
6. be a good mother
7. Be a good wife
8. be a true friend
9. be a nurse
10. be a Volunteer
11. be a good listener to someone who needs to be heard
12. help people
13. be a poet
14. sing without caring who hears me
15. get organized
16. learn to play the guitar
17. stop procrastinating
18. face my fears
19. learn to swim
20. look out the window of an airplane and enjoy the scenery
21. go up in a hot air balloon
22. go hang-gliding
23. be a good role-model
24. listen to my kids without judging
25. never grow up